The Sacred In us

November 19/24.
Grief has been having its way with me these past few months. I was waiting for the heartache to abate a bit but it has actually grown more intense. Writing hasn't been coming easily. Today is the day I will share a few things from my aching heart....

When my precious son Asher left this world he visited me in numerous ways that reassured me that our connection was indeed still happening. He met with me in a place that I can only identify as Sacred Ground. Heaven and earth meet in this place; within our hearts.

I've always known that peace lives in the moment between heartbeats and the connection Asher and I share has since led me to sharing it with those who are interested in reading about The Sacred In Us. 

The title: The Sacred In Us was inspired by our spiritual connection, as in the life force energy that connects all life and yet in humans is individually expressed. It is medicinal for me to write about this and my prayer that others will receive something healing from it as well.

I need to talk about who my Asher was to me and who I saw him as, out in the world.
As I mentioned in an earlier post, my son suffered from active addiction with periods of sobriety. Even during active addiction he held onto a number of the things dear to his heart. He never lost his humanity! He was always an exceptionally kind person, generous by nature and he possessed a gracefully developed and classy sense of good humour and quick wit! He treasured sacred possessions that held meaning to him. 

Update Jan 2 2026
I have been reviewing a few things dear to my heart and discovered this blog entry was still in draft form! This April will mark three years since my son and his Grandma left this world to go home to the next one. The fog of grief has been slowly clearing. My tech skills still suck but here I am plugging away at them lol! 

I learned how to type at a young age and enjoy being able to type old school. I am simultaneously typing as I watch a red robin who is sitting in a tree not far from my window. It's the first robin I've seen in quite a while! Whenever I see a red bird I feel my mother from the Spirit world making her presence known. She even reminded me of a bird when she was still with us. With my son Asher's spirit, I notice him represented by an eagle either in physical form or represented by an eagle feather or image.  

I have photos of my beloved son all around me, my favorites are of the two of us. I recently went thru my late mother's photo collection and found many more of us.  As a youngster he gave us a lot of joy! His smiles were truly as golden as sunshine! Incidentally, I find myself remembering that he inherited our family trait of a space between our front teeth. A dentist took the liberty of  'fixing' mine but I'm going to have it put back because my son inherited it from me. It's bittersweet to remember these little details yet they are what help this mama to feel the connection that never dies. 

A few weeks ago my son's spirit came to me in a 'visitation' during a sacred breath healing journey. He was in good spirits and was able to communicate a few things to me. He understood and validated that my grief journey feels like I am running the gauntlet. He is able to be with me throughout this journey and as a guide he sees where freedom is waiting for me. 

This marks the place where the fog of grief began to lift. The weight of it began to lighten. I have been feeling freer! Love never dies...it just changes form. 

I am watching out my window again and I am happy to report that someone has sent me a beautiful hummingbird! On Jan 2 yet!  I will take this as a sign that between sighting the robin and now the hummingbird we've gone full circle in this morning's blo.  I will let you go and send hummingbirds your way! 

Wishing you all much love, joy and vibrant good health during this beautiful Solstice season!